Kirkkitsch’s Blog

The Eyes Have It
October 23, 2013, 3:22 pm
Filed under: Life

Okay, let me preface this by saying, YES, I know this is probably pretty pathetic by most standards, but it’s newsworthy to me.YES, I am a 40-something who is excited about his first (that I recall), cruise, flirt, what have you.

As you know, I have ZERO luck in the dating department. It’s just the card I’ve been dealt. Maybe there’s something I could have been doing differently all these years, but it was never something I sought to research, pinpoint and cure. However, lately I have been wondering just what it is about me/my personality, body language, etc. that has created SUCH a dead zone (in regards to my dating life…or lack thereof). I may have questionable self-esteem, but I know I am NOT totally gross (that’s what generally like me, so I have a comparison). I think I have a plausibly outgoing personality. I feel like I’m friendly and approachable, unless, of course, my lack of a constant Colgate smile is ‘intimidating.’ I’m hygienic. I feel like my clothing is relatively neat in appearance, though I will admit I often wear clothing that is considerably larger than it needs to be, out of the habit of a lifetime of not being a “Skinny Minnie”, as my grandmother would put it. Deep inside, I KNOW I’m not as big as the clothing I choose, but I also am a slave to comfort and/or I’m not a fan of what I call “nipple-riffic” clothing; i.e. I feel like my nipples are on parade, when I wear a shirt that is actually more form-fitting (and probably more flattering than the T-shirt dresses/sweaters that I sometimes choose to wear). But I digress. Back to the subject at hand. Continue reading